Mommy is here

Today my world suffered a great loss. I'm overwhelmed with sadness. Today we unexpectedly lost a very good friend. He hadn't been physically well for several years, but loved life and was always looking forward to better days. He would always tell us that he didn't know where he would be without Jesus. Oh how he loved Jesus. 

We've been talking about him throughout the day, still in disbelief that he's gone. My brain is having a difficult time accepting it. We got to spend quite a bit of time with him this week, and his joy, in spite of his physical ailments was so contagious. He had a lot of wisdom. He always said he wished he was in better health so he could help others more, but I know he helped more than he could ever imagine. He was blessing every time we got to spend time with him.

Now at night, as I was tucking my son in bed, he said he was really sad about what happened. I knelt by his bed and we talked about our friend, how he shared a love for hot wheel cars, how he loved Jesus, and so many other memories. It was nice talking with my little boy. I know this is difficult for him as he's still so young. It was already late and I wanted him to sleep. He was quiet for a while and then said, with sadness in his eyes, how much he misses our friend and how he's sad that he's gone. I laid down in bed next to my son, hugged him tight, and said, "mommy's here." He held my hand and was fast asleep. I can't make his pain go away, but we'll go through this experience together. I'm not going to leave him alone and will help him as he mourns too and processes everything. 

I was amazed at how quickly he fell asleep once I was right there next to him. He felt safe and his worries were gone. Knowing that he was not alone gave him comfort and could now sleep in peace. 

My mind was directed to my Heavenly Father who promised to never leave me alone. When going through the storms of life, I can be sure that He is with me. He may not make the pain go away right now, but He promises to go through trials together. He won't leave me alone. He will lay next to me, hug me tight, and remind me that He's right here with me. Knowing this makes me feel safe and I worry no more. It gives me comfort and I can go through life in peace. What an amazing thought!

To my friend, have a sweet rest. I'll meet you on that beautiful day when we will all be given new bodies and get to put on immortality.

"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." 

Deuteronomy 31:8

"...we will all be changed, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet; for the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. For this perishable must put on the imperishable, and this mortal must put on immortality..."

I Corinthians 15:51-53